Everything happened in split seconds.
She knocked off from work
and started yelling at me.
i dont know why.
perhaps....?
My mom shouted, " All these years that ive nurtured and brought you up, in return ive lost my faith in you and wasted my money. I've got nothing back , but just an unconsiderably ignorant child."
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how hurting and discouraging.
I felt totally useless.
my mom
my KIN.
said those words out
of her mouth so easily.
it was as if a knife stabbed my heart.
i just felt lost and like a homeless kid
nowhere to go.
how am i going to go on with my education and my life.
Nothing rattled in my brains
but just the word,"FAILURE".
i felt the emptiness in me.
I could no longer hold on to myself.
i 'm such a dissappointment
and disgrace.
I dont know what wrong i did to make her said those harsh words& kick up a fuss.
maybe.....
she kept it all in her heart
all along.
& finally she revealed the truth.
i`m feeling miserably confused .& terribly disheartened.
i dont know to hate her? to let it be? to leave home?...
it`s not the first time i`m stuck in
such situations and family matters.
i hate it.
