isp is over.
stress is gone
but unhappiness came tumbling over.

im really relieved.
but somehow i felt lost.
i feel empty inside
no warmth at all.
tears overwhelmed my eyes.
who is there for me?
no one else ):
but just ME.

i shouldnt have woke up at all. i should have sleep like no other - the sleeping beauty.
then everythg would not have happened.
or perhaps i should not have even continued schooling.
then she wouldnt have brought up those issues.
when everythg just happened in split seconds...
i regretted totally when in a moment of harsh
i said " i will move out & disappear right in front of your sight."
& she replied "go ahead".
my heart shattered into bits when upon hearing that.

i thought that she could be the best person whom i could confide everything to.
but i was WRONG.
my mom doesnt understand me at all.
she`s trying to compare between me and her colleague`s child
and she goes on how well he is doing and blah blah blah.
i know how bad i am doing. and i know how useless i am.
& she continues....

why of all ive got such issues to trouble about.
i hate school.
thats why i have been skipping it regularly.
i aint enjoying my life.
why isit so hard.
i miss those days when i live everyday freely without probbing and struggling to handle such
nonsense.

i am trying to be myself.
to act happy?
but its just such a faker.
or i should just give a glumpy face everyday?
now where do i have to go?
leave home?
jump off the building?
or just quit school.

my state of mind could not stop thinkg so negatively.