Noone understands me, neither do i understand myself
i`m starting to wonder if ive got spilt personality.
ive been all along living in my own world,
im tired of all of it and i had enough of fakers.
when your closest friend keep saying you've got alot of friends , which is so untrue,
well they simply make that statement because wherever you go , people are saying hi to you ( they are just acquaintance & not friends)
Or they saw the various photographs you took with different companions. & starts to assume that you have SO MANY friends.
it feels comfort to have friends around you, but definitely not when your closest friend makes you feel empty
DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL? ):

i just wonder do i really have true friends?
is it true that friends are just for display?
that they are not exactly what you think they are?
like they said they would be there for you? but why they arent?
and when you told them that you want to meet them up soon,
but they ended saying they are not free ,
& they are hanging out with themselves instead of asking you along.
Or its just a big fat lie & ended up gossiping behind your back? but you are kept in the dark

Perhaps one silly girl who doesnt know that she's being disliked,
and should just fake ignorance and act that cant be bothered about them.
and just leave them alone, because one should excuse oneself if you're not invited.
BUT CANT ):
true friends are suppose to leave no misery and be truth to one another.
why should they be her friends in the first place? friends are for keeps ! ):


pictures might display that instance and create memories, but feeling that it was all along
just living in pretendence perhaps.
I WONDER WHERE WENT WRONG. ):
IT MIGHT JUST BE ALL HER FAULT.